the watch

up til a couple years ago, i had one watch. i had had it for a very long time. it was perfect. it had an unconventional shape, what is called a franklin, it kind of looked like a shield laying on its side. i got lots of comments and compliments on it. it was silver and went with everything i wore. i wore it every day and even had the wristband replaced when it broke. i loved that watch, i never had to think about which watch to wear, and i knew it was just right for what i wanted, telling time.

then i lost it! i was heartsick. i called the store where i thot it might have been dropped, i looked around the parking lot where it might have fallen out of my pocket, you see it had broke and i was carrying it in my pocket until i could take it to the watch repairman.

i found another watch but it wasnt' the same. then i found a watch that had lots of different wristbands to change in and out, but it wasn't the same. i even started beading and made several new wristbands for my watch, but it wasn't the same.... it hasn't been the same since i lost my watch.

what does this have to do with anything? maybe nothing, but in my ponderings i have thot about my search for comfort when hard trials, difficult circumstances, or unpleasent situations occur. its like i'm looking for that perfect watch, that one that will fulfill every need, bring comfort, and be the best fit for the occassion. having had my perfect watch i know what to look for, and in my spiritual life having Jesus i know what to look for. so WHY do i seek other things instead of Jesus when the real thing is the best thing for me? i don't know ....

it's like i'm window shopping and along the street there are vendors everywhere with loads of goodies. one vendor has creamy donuts and soft baked chocolate chip cookies straight from the oven. mmm! yummy. but not what is needed when i'm searching for a watch. the next vendor over has books, lots and lots of books to read. i get stuck there reading and leafing thru the interesting texts. but a book is not a watch and is not what i need. another vendor has the latest dvd, another the latest jewelry and jeans. but none are what i want or need!

and so it is when seeking Jesus. He's not right out there in one of the vendors carts. He is tucked away, and i must seek Him, look for Him, pursue Him. it may take awhile, but the pursuit is worth it. and when i find Him, He is all i need.

there are many psalms that speak of waiting on the Lord. one of my favs is ps 33:20 "our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield."

won't you wait for the Lord with me? He's worth the wait!